I thought I
had better come clean (come out) here as my time may have run out.
When I wrote up the
"Intro" page, I was a lot younger and more romantically inclined and
full of the inspiration for the music and for my relationship with
Dianne and what the future might bring. We shared a common interest in
Shakespeare, theatre and art. The use of a Shakespeare verse was a
romantic expression of how I was feeling about the joy of composing
music inspired by my relationship with Dianne in those days.
I thought I would have an
exciting time with the music and be able to succeed in making a living
worth the devotion, and provide Dianne and myself and my disabled
daughter, Claire, with the means for a life we have never known. I
estimated that there was enough time and that if I lived the traditional
4 score and ten years I would be happy to let go and move on to the next
world .. whatever that was to be.
So I fooled around with the
Shakespearian verse on the Intro page, and re-wrote it with a modicum of artistic license
into a verse that basically meant the same but had a inverted viewpoint.
As Shakespeare had his time of birth and death, I thought it amusing to
also put my birth but suddenly the task of making the choice of what
death year started me thinking.
I had long accepted that a
reasonable life span, and a probable life span would take me to about 70
years old. A lot of my favourite activities would probably be over a
done with by that time I laughingly thought, so I figured I liked
a little more time thank you. So I extended it to 72 years. That turned
out to be 2020
1947 to 2020 looked neat
and comfortable. But this is the scary part......
I used a technique of
Intuitive Visualization of the day of my passing and it came up as 24th
April 2020 but may have been 2022 but I thought that was stretching it
too far so I settled for 2020. Seemed too clear and it was easy to doubt. After all I was
doing this little exercise and building the webpage at around 1996.
That's when I first decided to
have a website and started teaching myself about computers. Windows
95 encouraged this idea as it was so user friendly.
But after a while I thought
2020 was too neat, and looking at men I would be at that age around me, I figured I
should be able to squeeze out some more time than 2020 so I added a couple of more
years from the number "20" to the number "22" which was to me, a significant number in
Numerology, and so the story goes, I would cark it still looking pretty
handsome as it were. LOL So I settled on 2022.
My thoughts were turned to the idea that I should be
able to live up to his current age, why not live as long
as Dianne's grandmother? Ninety Two.
As a 9 year old in
Surrey Hills I met a lovely old lady whom I called "Old 92" - her age at the time. She lived at
the back of the terraced house my mother was living in at Darlinghurst
in Sydney. I was visiting mum from the foster home in
Armidale for a couple of weeks during the school holidays. My Mother had
suddenly turned up in my life visiting the orphanage after years of
forgetting I ever HAD a mother. I was living at the Ohio Boys Home from around 1958 to 1965 and so I was delighted to go down to Sydney on the
train for a holiday with the Mother I barely knew but loved so deeply.
So that is where "92" became a significant number.
